I go back and forth between being overwhelmed and being excited. In the beginning, I thought that the transition from the former to the latter was due to the ridiculous amounts of caffeine that I consume, but after building up enough of a tolerance it is safe to say that it’s my mind messing with me.
I’m going through a very interesting time in my life right now. I’m 20, no longer a teenager but not yet an adult. I suppose that this transitionary period applies for the rest of my life as well. I’m getting out and playing shows again, but not sure about what my band (if you’d like to call it that) is called, who is in it and what exactly we play. I’m a couple of months away from immersing myself in a brand new musical environment, but right now I’m stuck working two minimum wage jobs to get by.
I’m overwhelmed because this past year I learned so much about playing, performing and how much blood, sweat and tears it is to take something as far as it can go. I’m overwhelmed because of how just when you think you have a plan life decides to kick you in the teeth. I’m overwhelmed by the amount of talented people I have met who aren’t nearly as recognized as they should be.
I’m excited for the same reasons. I’m excited because I’m going to take on this challenge the way that I was supposed to, my way. I’m sitting here in my room with clothes all over the floor, 3 different notebooks open with scribbles all over and a good friend’s music playing through my speakers. I feel alive. Just give me a little more time. it’s gonna be good, I promise.
It’s been a while since I’ve written something in here. It’s funny how the page is filled with Instagram photos, that thing is pretty cool. I’ve always written pretty focused posts in here but it’s but right now I’m at a very unfocused place. I’m writing a ton of music and I’m paying a lot with some incredible players down at SUNY Purchase. It’s going to be great going there next year. It’s also my birthday today. Being 20 is sorta scary, but I dig it too. The point of this extremely unfocused post is to tell you that I will be back with some cool news pretty soon, just hang tight. Something pretty sweet is in the works.
After a magnificent year, I’m sad to say that Run On The Sun is no more. This past year touring, recording and performing with these guys has been the best year of my life. I learned what it means to connect to your audience. I learned more about life from my teen aged band mate than I did from anyone else. I learned what it’s like to make a difference in someone’s life through music.
Although our journey’s been cut short, I’m proud of what we’ve accomplished. In less than a year we’ve played more shows than we can count, some for 2 people and some for over 2,000. We’ve played with our best friends from down the street and with Cee Lo Green. Deadmau5 and The Black Keys. We released a 5 song EP to raving reviews as well as a music video that got great write ups. I spent every free minute and every spare dollar on spreading on our message to everyone. And I don’t regret any of it. I’ve grown closer to Brett, Sandro and Ethan in one year than I have to people who I’ve known my entire life. They’ll always be my brothers.
The situation is pretty shitty and unfair, but we’ve all decided that the best decision we can make is move on. I’d like to ask you to support my brothers at anything they do, I know I will.